this is what it's all about.

the mommy guilt sunk in. deep. and it hit me hard recently. and i broke.

but, i am slowly learning to let it go. to not take the blame for what is not my fault. to not over analyze and nit pick at my mothering skills.

that's no easy task for me as a person or as a mom.

i think instinctively as a mother we take responsibility for things that are far beyond our control. we plan, most of the time too much. we think, always too much. we worry, always more than is really necessary. i will never stop doing any of these things. but i am trying to sort some things out in my very unorganized & broken mommy brain of mine :)

i haven't figured out all of the details of my plan yet but i am working on it. slowly, slowly but surely, thanks to the support of a few very special people that always know what to say.

the one thing i have always known for certain is that it's moments like the one pictured above that are what it's all about. it's for them. and no matter how hard it may be, it is always worth it. they are always, always worth it.

and i am more than thankful for both of those crazy little lovers of mine.